I hesitated liking this post as I don’t want it it come across as though I liked hearing about the hell that has befallen you over the last 24years!
Fuck man, I know I’ve read about a lot of your story already, but this post just rammed it home. You have been through hell! You deserve some sort of parade or medal or something simply for your enduring all this!
“When my brain gets overloaded, I become neurologically symptomatic.” — this line, and many of the others, really reinforced the idea that body and mind and not only connected but one thing. And that, looking for a cause of your non-epileptic seizures MUST take into account all the other physical mental emotional and psychological traumas you’ve experienced, as it’s all connected!
Thank you so much, Michael. Reading my journals to type out the timeline really blew me away to realize how many things happened in such a short time. And how many I’d forgotten. The Body really does Keep the Score of everything else. Your Torn series shows that soooo clearly! I look forward to seeing what might be cleared out of my head by detangling all these threads and examining them from this lens of “Ah-hah! So that’s the culprit!”
Yeah I can relate (although you certainly have me beat!) to experience of sorting through it all and being confronted with just how much stuff went down. And yes, I think clearing it all out and detangling everything definitely helps offer some clarity and hopeful even some answers.
Answers for sure. My hope is that if I can detangle the threads, put them where they belong in the Memory Files instead of the Red Alert Traumatic Memory Files maybe that can go backwards and stop the seizures.
Although I am really convinced that my neck injury and the CSF backup is another main culprit. The amount my neck has been affected by my teeth/TMJ treatments only gives credence to that. So…it may be time for another EMDR round now with all this understanding and the Ah-Hah of AuDHD. I’ve only got 2 days left of Invisalign!!! And sleep seizures have diminished greatly. I dunno. It’s all a big science experiment and archeology hunt. 🤓😜🧐 Good thing those are some of my passions.
Also. Don’t ever hesitate with the 💖 button. I know it’s the story, not the hell you’re being supportive of. Thank you for pushing that button and having conversations with me about this stuff. It means the world.
I hesitated liking this post as I don’t want it it come across as though I liked hearing about the hell that has befallen you over the last 24years!
Fuck man, I know I’ve read about a lot of your story already, but this post just rammed it home. You have been through hell! You deserve some sort of parade or medal or something simply for your enduring all this!
“When my brain gets overloaded, I become neurologically symptomatic.” — this line, and many of the others, really reinforced the idea that body and mind and not only connected but one thing. And that, looking for a cause of your non-epileptic seizures MUST take into account all the other physical mental emotional and psychological traumas you’ve experienced, as it’s all connected!
Wow Alexx. Wishing you all the best.
Thank you so much, Michael. Reading my journals to type out the timeline really blew me away to realize how many things happened in such a short time. And how many I’d forgotten. The Body really does Keep the Score of everything else. Your Torn series shows that soooo clearly! I look forward to seeing what might be cleared out of my head by detangling all these threads and examining them from this lens of “Ah-hah! So that’s the culprit!”
Yeah I can relate (although you certainly have me beat!) to experience of sorting through it all and being confronted with just how much stuff went down. And yes, I think clearing it all out and detangling everything definitely helps offer some clarity and hopeful even some answers.
Answers for sure. My hope is that if I can detangle the threads, put them where they belong in the Memory Files instead of the Red Alert Traumatic Memory Files maybe that can go backwards and stop the seizures.
Although I am really convinced that my neck injury and the CSF backup is another main culprit. The amount my neck has been affected by my teeth/TMJ treatments only gives credence to that. So…it may be time for another EMDR round now with all this understanding and the Ah-Hah of AuDHD. I’ve only got 2 days left of Invisalign!!! And sleep seizures have diminished greatly. I dunno. It’s all a big science experiment and archeology hunt. 🤓😜🧐 Good thing those are some of my passions.
I really hope going backwards and working through it all helps Alexx.
And that’s a great way to put it — an archeology hunt! :)
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Also. Don’t ever hesitate with the 💖 button. I know it’s the story, not the hell you’re being supportive of. Thank you for pushing that button and having conversations with me about this stuff. It means the world.
I’m happy to be here Alexx :)