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Any way we can reframe fuzzy into things like slippers and woobies? Impressionistic like something the Leverage team wants to keep in their HQ? Dungeon in a good way, not in the H H Holmes or Tower of London way?

Any way TBI stands for Totally Bitchin' Italian? Can we MAKE it stand for that? About time we made it our bitch instead of the other way around, non? >:)

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Oui. Can Confirm. Haven’t we been working on these shifts for…well since we met? I quite like them. 🤩😈🤩

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What struck me the most about this piece was how your body and unconscious remembers — but that your mind doesn’t!

That is something I had never thought about in terms of TBI, but it makes so much sense now that you’ve explained it. It also helps illuminate how hard things must be for you, when you can’t even begin to intellectualise why your body feels a certain way in response to certain stimuli. I mean, it’s hard enough to understand our emotions as it is, let alone when we have lost the memories that trigger them.

This was really insightful, Alexx! :)

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Oh my doodness, YES. Have you ever read The Body Keeps the Score?? Explains so much about this phenomenon. My last neuropsych exam explains the rest. We’ll be getting into that very shortly. Understanding this, now I kinda know what it feels like when my subconscious is trying to tell me things. But often I have no idea where to find it in the gobs of my journals. Then randomly I’ll stumble across it while I’m researching something else. 🤪

That totally just happened to me this past month with a very old, very complicated relationship. Then it’s like my 27 year old self has to race to catch up, bringing with her all the emotions I never got to feel. But once it happens, so many of my life’s mysteries suddenly make sense, now with my older, more experienced comprehension of things so…I dunno. It’s jerry-rigged into working out well in the end. Hahaha!

As always, thank you so much for being here!

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Yeah I read it quite a while ago and I remember it being really eye-opening in these terms.

It’s almost like you’re a detective piecing together clues from and old crime or something. It’s incredible.

And, I guess, even though the circumstances for you reaching this inner knowing have been less than ideal, there is something amazing about being more in tune with your subconscious. :)

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Oh absolutely! The sleuthing and healing all the TBI stuff has absolutely helped me in the other areas of my life. Like the ramifications of the trauma stored in my body, not just from the car wreck and other brain injuries, but from my youngest years. Helps so much!!!

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That’s good. It’s nice there is always a silver lining to these things :)

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Totally! What gets me through it. And makes it so I wouldn’t change anything even if I had a magic wand.

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